There are doubters and believers.  Which are you? There is a great big difference as to where you will be in the after life. Sounds crazy and too simple, but you have to be like a little child and believe like a little child to become a Christian.
Jesus already made a way when he shed blood and took your place on the cross.
Kindly open a Bible or just Google  John 3:16.
Shut your eyes and ask Jesus to come into your heart..  Your faith in Him will save you.
Think I am simple minded, I am. I believe as a little child that Jesus Christ is the Living God'